It's Been Too Long Again

i realize as i look at the lack of new wanderings here that i have done it again and stayed away too long. Since we last weaved i have been up and down. as for right now, i have a pretty wicked sun burn and i am 8 days after getting 22 shots in the right side of my face. so what does all this tell me? i am still here. not gone yet, not beaten down yet, still kicking ass and kicking out the jams.

so has it been too long? i think so. i haven't been using this space as intended. i can't undo that. the past only exists in recordings and memories, it is gone, yesterday is gone, only today and what is done today. tomorrow is all imaginairum and spirit, today is the real. this moment right now with eyes closed hammering at the keys, free from everything that is held against me. so you get me now, a little sunpoisoned, immensly flying on my meds, beautiful as the One would have it. all my pain is pennance for being so beautiful. i am flawed because if i wasn't then i would be the One, since i am flawed i am not the One but the One is lovely to me. it holds me it loves me and my imperfect pain. one day i will have perfect pain and this will free me from my chains.

so if this is supposed to be a blog of theraputic nature let me send you into a little therapy. why are we hidden? your skin, oh yeah your skin unfolds... not i, i am not hidden! open your heart then! be thou the one who embraces the authenticity of openess. if you are open then this is as you are!soe day i will ride the chariot of fire and eyes. i will hold the whip but not crack it, the horses pull fast enough.